Still don't quite know what I want. I know don't want to get married again. I know don't want to play house and live with anyone, or wake up next next to them every morning. I want the freedom of having my own space to be myself. At the same time I guess I want to have my cake and eat it too in the sense that I do want to have a relationship with someone. I would like it be meaningful relationship with them, not necessarily be something defined by current cultural standards. Something we define as our own.
Not sure if that right someone is even out there. I like the idea being able to have someone in my life who I can talk to and is willing to share the same with me. At the same time would like them to have their own life. Someone who has their own home yet wants to come over and spend time with me having fun just because.
I'm sure for the right person I might change my mind somewhat on my current boundries but I want to take things slow. Both my marriages started with fast kinda crazy worldwind romances, yet neither lasted. I want to make sure to take my time when it comes to romance moving forward.
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Sunday, December 26, 2010
Good riddance to 2010
This year has been less than stellar for me. I really am looking forward to 2011 and all the new possibilities it may bring. They say the biggest changes in life happen when you get a new job, get married, buy a house or have a baby. My life has major changes this year but almost in reverse. I'll explain:
• Started the year off already going through a divorce. Yes, this was my choice. Never imagined that I would have to take my ex to court just to get him to move out of the house or that I would be the one having to pay child support & alimony. Now I only have 50% custody of my youngest child.
• On New Year's eve last year my oldest daughter (15 now) had her first suicide attempt of the year. Yes, I spent New Year's eve in the ER. Unfortunately it did not stop there. It has been a constant issue this year with her, 5 suicide attempts so far.
• I have had a chance to make some wonderful friends this year. At the same time I have met really crappy fake people that I know wish I had never met. The same goes for guys I have met since being single and dating.
• Found out just before Thanksgiving that I'm being laid off in the first part of the new year. It has caused me to hate my job which I have not done in the last 12 years. It has really thrown me for a loop.
So I'm losing a job, getting divorced, worried about my kids and due to the lay off may need to seriously reconsider my housing options. Major life changes all around this year. Yes, I have survived but I am looking for next year to be better. It would be great if I could relax just a little and enjoy life a bit.
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• Started the year off already going through a divorce. Yes, this was my choice. Never imagined that I would have to take my ex to court just to get him to move out of the house or that I would be the one having to pay child support & alimony. Now I only have 50% custody of my youngest child.
• On New Year's eve last year my oldest daughter (15 now) had her first suicide attempt of the year. Yes, I spent New Year's eve in the ER. Unfortunately it did not stop there. It has been a constant issue this year with her, 5 suicide attempts so far.
• I have had a chance to make some wonderful friends this year. At the same time I have met really crappy fake people that I know wish I had never met. The same goes for guys I have met since being single and dating.
• Found out just before Thanksgiving that I'm being laid off in the first part of the new year. It has caused me to hate my job which I have not done in the last 12 years. It has really thrown me for a loop.
So I'm losing a job, getting divorced, worried about my kids and due to the lay off may need to seriously reconsider my housing options. Major life changes all around this year. Yes, I have survived but I am looking for next year to be better. It would be great if I could relax just a little and enjoy life a bit.
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Monday, October 25, 2010
The last year
Over the last year I have gone through a lot of changes personally. I separated from my husband and started divorce proceeding. The divorce seems to be the catalyst for most of what has changed over the last year.
There have been a lot of people who have taught me things along the way. There is that saying that people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Not quite sure what bucket they all fit in yet, but it's been an interesting journey either way so far.
Prior to my separation I had met three of the most intelligent, funny, color outside the lines and honest women I know. They have been so awesome in being there. All of us sharing our ups and downs. Sharing what we are grateful for and sharing our secrets. Not sure where I would be without them.
I've also met a few people that reminded me that not all men are jerks. Yet at the same time to keep my eyes open and not be naive on the lies some men are willing to tell. I have also been reminded so many times this year to trust my gut. When I had doubts about friendships and motives I questioned myself and others intentions. Second guessing my initial feelings. In the end those individuals proved that my initial gut feel was right on the money.
Also made a friend that reminded me that I'm a very intelligent, independent, benevolent & beautiful single mom that has her shit together. He also helped me to better see a certain part of myself. Not sure he even knows that. Either way I'm grateful and will always think of him as a friend. As I mentioned before I'm not sure what bucket everyone falls into, but I know he no longer considers me a friend. None the less I wish only the best for him.
Live and learn, I try to remind myself everyday to say what I want and not settle for less. To remember to trust my gut and be patient as things and relationships are ever evolving.
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There have been a lot of people who have taught me things along the way. There is that saying that people come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. Not quite sure what bucket they all fit in yet, but it's been an interesting journey either way so far.
Prior to my separation I had met three of the most intelligent, funny, color outside the lines and honest women I know. They have been so awesome in being there. All of us sharing our ups and downs. Sharing what we are grateful for and sharing our secrets. Not sure where I would be without them.
I've also met a few people that reminded me that not all men are jerks. Yet at the same time to keep my eyes open and not be naive on the lies some men are willing to tell. I have also been reminded so many times this year to trust my gut. When I had doubts about friendships and motives I questioned myself and others intentions. Second guessing my initial feelings. In the end those individuals proved that my initial gut feel was right on the money.
Also made a friend that reminded me that I'm a very intelligent, independent, benevolent & beautiful single mom that has her shit together. He also helped me to better see a certain part of myself. Not sure he even knows that. Either way I'm grateful and will always think of him as a friend. As I mentioned before I'm not sure what bucket everyone falls into, but I know he no longer considers me a friend. None the less I wish only the best for him.
Live and learn, I try to remind myself everyday to say what I want and not settle for less. To remember to trust my gut and be patient as things and relationships are ever evolving.
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Saturday, July 17, 2010
Reorganize
Ever get the feeling it's time to reorganize or reinvent yourself? I have been feeling out of sorts all week with out really being sure as to why. Now I'm thinking I need to make some changes. Clear the shelves and start fresh.
I need to go back to eating more of raw diet, I feel more energized when I do. I need to remember to drink more water. Plan on starting couch to 5K on Monday. Longer term I need to figure out how to get back to dancing, I miss it.
I need to cleanse my house & reorganize. Put away wedding pictures, collect what remains of my ex's belongs and return them, throw away old love notes.
I need to get back to writing more, especially on vegan topics. I want to get back to practicing French.
I have a lot of things and goals I want to do, so I must reorganize in order to make it happen and stop feeling so anxious about it all.
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A season
This last year has brought so many changes to my life. A (not using real names to protect the innocent & the not so innocent) made me realize how unsatisfied & miserable I was in my marriage. D made me feel passion. I don't mean physical passion but rather a passion of emotions. It was a crazy emotional ride, but it made me feel alive again.
Things with D ended as quickly as they began. Think I was lucky enough to have several people around me such as D2, G & M to get over everything and move forward.
Yes, the whole last year has been an interesting ride. I figure it is exactly what I needed to change my life and move forward.
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Things with D ended as quickly as they began. Think I was lucky enough to have several people around me such as D2, G & M to get over everything and move forward.
Yes, the whole last year has been an interesting ride. I figure it is exactly what I needed to change my life and move forward.
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Thursday, June 24, 2010
The phone call.....[warning do not read if you are easily upset]
I never thought a phone call could change my life, but it did.
I was 8, my parents had taken us out to the movies. It was raining when we got home. Mom was trying to open the door. My dad was caring my sis since she had fallen asleep. The phone started to ring before the door was open. I ran inside and picked it up. On the otherside was a woman crying. She asked for my dad so I of course handed him the phone. A few words where exchanged between them. He went into his bedroom with my mom right on his heels. I could hear them arguing but not quite sure what they were saying. A few minutes later, he had a bag in his hand and left.
Didn't know exactly what happened, but I sure was about to find out. Once that door closed my mom started to scream at me hysterically.
"You are never to answer the phone again" "it's your fault your daddy left"
She was then on the phone with my grandma and aunties yelling and crying. She seemed to cry all night. I must have fallen asleep since our house had a eerie stillness to it in the morning. Once my mom was up she packed a few bags and off to grandma's house we went. The next day she left. My sister and I were there for a week. No one would tell us what was happening. Where are parents were. I'd try calling home and the phone would just ring and ring. My sister and I felt abandoned by both of our parents.
When my mom finally returned to get us she said, we moved. She had managed to have her job transfer her to a location 2 hours south of where we lived with my dad. She had rented a house and moved furniture in.
My parents were seperated. My mom was working crazy hours to try & make ends meet. During the week, we had a maid that watched us. I use that term losely as she was an illegal my mom paid her under the table. Since she had no one to watch us on the weekend there was an elderly distant relative she would drop us off with.
We didn't have a choice about this. During this time my dad maybe took me & my sister for the weekend twice. This relative had an older son that lived with her. I'm not entirely sure how old he was but I want to say late 20's. At first he was very nice to us regularly drawing us pictures of Hello Kitty. This was 1980.
After a while just one of us would be in his room. Initially it was no big deal. Then he started to regularly stand me in front of his mirror with him standing behind me. He would rub his hands up & down on my non-existant breast. He would tell me that when I was a women I would enjoy this. Things progressed each weekend that we were there. Finally to the point where he would put his hands all the way down my pants. Now, he would seperate me & my sister as much as possible. I would try to regularly protect her as much as I could. I couldn't image him doing the same to her, but he did.
Weird thing was this went unnoticed. We would BEG our dad to come get us. Would ask to be left home alone. Plus the regular bladder infections. Unnoticed. No, our patents were in their own world. This went on for a year and a half before we moved again.
By the time I was 13 I had finally told my parents about this. Only to have my dad call me a liar. Soon afterwards this man was at a family reunion. I was horrified! My dad wanted to see me explode & go off, I didn't. I spent the day sitting in a corner with a fever & throwing up from being so upset. I failed to react the way my dad expected. Therefore according to him, I was never molested and I had lied in his eyes.
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I was 8, my parents had taken us out to the movies. It was raining when we got home. Mom was trying to open the door. My dad was caring my sis since she had fallen asleep. The phone started to ring before the door was open. I ran inside and picked it up. On the otherside was a woman crying. She asked for my dad so I of course handed him the phone. A few words where exchanged between them. He went into his bedroom with my mom right on his heels. I could hear them arguing but not quite sure what they were saying. A few minutes later, he had a bag in his hand and left.
Didn't know exactly what happened, but I sure was about to find out. Once that door closed my mom started to scream at me hysterically.
"You are never to answer the phone again" "it's your fault your daddy left"
She was then on the phone with my grandma and aunties yelling and crying. She seemed to cry all night. I must have fallen asleep since our house had a eerie stillness to it in the morning. Once my mom was up she packed a few bags and off to grandma's house we went. The next day she left. My sister and I were there for a week. No one would tell us what was happening. Where are parents were. I'd try calling home and the phone would just ring and ring. My sister and I felt abandoned by both of our parents.
When my mom finally returned to get us she said, we moved. She had managed to have her job transfer her to a location 2 hours south of where we lived with my dad. She had rented a house and moved furniture in.
My parents were seperated. My mom was working crazy hours to try & make ends meet. During the week, we had a maid that watched us. I use that term losely as she was an illegal my mom paid her under the table. Since she had no one to watch us on the weekend there was an elderly distant relative she would drop us off with.
We didn't have a choice about this. During this time my dad maybe took me & my sister for the weekend twice. This relative had an older son that lived with her. I'm not entirely sure how old he was but I want to say late 20's. At first he was very nice to us regularly drawing us pictures of Hello Kitty. This was 1980.
After a while just one of us would be in his room. Initially it was no big deal. Then he started to regularly stand me in front of his mirror with him standing behind me. He would rub his hands up & down on my non-existant breast. He would tell me that when I was a women I would enjoy this. Things progressed each weekend that we were there. Finally to the point where he would put his hands all the way down my pants. Now, he would seperate me & my sister as much as possible. I would try to regularly protect her as much as I could. I couldn't image him doing the same to her, but he did.
Weird thing was this went unnoticed. We would BEG our dad to come get us. Would ask to be left home alone. Plus the regular bladder infections. Unnoticed. No, our patents were in their own world. This went on for a year and a half before we moved again.
By the time I was 13 I had finally told my parents about this. Only to have my dad call me a liar. Soon afterwards this man was at a family reunion. I was horrified! My dad wanted to see me explode & go off, I didn't. I spent the day sitting in a corner with a fever & throwing up from being so upset. I failed to react the way my dad expected. Therefore according to him, I was never molested and I had lied in his eyes.
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Tuesday, June 22, 2010
What to do, what to do!
So it seems that if one aspect of my life is going well the other parts just fall to pieces.
Although work has been extremely busy this year, I have already exceeded my savings targets for this year. I have also received two awards and just found out this week that I'm going to receive another award next week. Career-wise yes life is good.
The other aspects, not so much! As many of you know I'm going through a pretty messed up divorce. My ex is really been going after me for as much money as possible. No only in the form of child and spousal support, but also my stocks and retirement accounts. I don't mind the child support. I do resent the spousal support, he works for another pharmaceutical company and earns good money. Now this week he is being laid off, so he has been wanting to take me to court so that he can get half my salary. This has had me fuming of course!
We previously agreed that I would keep our house. With the current status of the economy we would end up selling at a loss. The issue that comes up is how do I maintain an a house this size, my sanity and support my ex. As much as I love this house I feel like I have to walk away. It is just four walls, wood & concrete right? So why is the idea of selling my home so hard. For all I have worked for and accomplished this idea makes me feel like a failure. At the same time I want to be able to spend what I want when I want & buy things for my kids. I want to take vacations. With having to support my ex I really have been having to watch what I spend & I really hate that.
Now that I have failed at two marriages and most likely will have to sell my house, yeah life sucks!
Although work has been extremely busy this year, I have already exceeded my savings targets for this year. I have also received two awards and just found out this week that I'm going to receive another award next week. Career-wise yes life is good.
The other aspects, not so much! As many of you know I'm going through a pretty messed up divorce. My ex is really been going after me for as much money as possible. No only in the form of child and spousal support, but also my stocks and retirement accounts. I don't mind the child support. I do resent the spousal support, he works for another pharmaceutical company and earns good money. Now this week he is being laid off, so he has been wanting to take me to court so that he can get half my salary. This has had me fuming of course!
We previously agreed that I would keep our house. With the current status of the economy we would end up selling at a loss. The issue that comes up is how do I maintain an a house this size, my sanity and support my ex. As much as I love this house I feel like I have to walk away. It is just four walls, wood & concrete right? So why is the idea of selling my home so hard. For all I have worked for and accomplished this idea makes me feel like a failure. At the same time I want to be able to spend what I want when I want & buy things for my kids. I want to take vacations. With having to support my ex I really have been having to watch what I spend & I really hate that.
Now that I have failed at two marriages and most likely will have to sell my house, yeah life sucks!
Sunday, May 9, 2010
What a girl wants.....
What a girl wants and maybe a little of what a girl doesn't want. After 10 years I once again find myself single. A little older and hopeful a bit wiser. Over the last few months I have been doing a lot of soul searching trying to re-find myself and getting centered once again.
I have been married twice now and am pretty certain at this point that I don't want to go down that path again. I have had three children two of which will be moving on to college and having a life of their own before I know it. So, I'm not looking to start a family and raise kids and build a home with anyone. I have that. I think I'm at a stage in my life where I'm being a bit more selfish. I want to date maybe even have a relationship with someone so that I can have fun and enjoy someone else's company. I'm not looking to have someone move in with me or support me.
With all of these thoughts swirling in my head I have made a list of qualities that I'm looking for in a person to date or have a relationship. This list is in no particular order, just how I thought up these items.
Intelligence - I know that this sounds like a given, but I find I can become quite inpatient with people that can not grasp complex ideas.
Ambition - I have met some very intelligent individuals that have no ambition. Sure they can make more money or get that job, but for some reason they choose to complain about it rather than take action and change their situation.
Kindness - General kindness to other is a must have. Not only do I need kindness, but someone who can show my children kindness. By this I do not mean I'm looking for a daddy, but really someone that can be genuinely kind.
Humor - I want someone who can make me giggle and be silly with me. Life is too short to always be serious. Need to have fun.
Passion - If you are interested in me tell me. Let me know it. Hate to play guessing games. Now this is completely different than smothering with affection and stalking. Once thing is for sure, I need my own space.
Conversation - Love to meet someone that could talk about Nuclear medicine, Yo gabba gabba or nothing at all. Just being able to hold a conversation about whatever is going on is a good thing.
Responsibility - Again this seems pretty obvious but it amazes me how many people do not seem to take responsibility for themselves and their own actions. You're a grown up right? Well act like it.
Emotional strength and maturity - Yes my life is complicated. I know that and I doubt that will ever change. Need someone that can deal with that. Life is not always rainbows and unicorns. Life can get ugly and messy at times. If that is too much to handle then, they are not the one for me.
Financial Stability - Like I said I'm not looking to play house and have someone support me, I can stand on my two feet. I expect the same of who ever I'm with.
Shameless flirting - Okay, so I will acknowledge that I'm a huge shameless flirt. But it truly is just that. If I'm committed, I'm committed. So if I'm flirting it is just that and nothing more. Takes a big man to be able to deal with that.
Acceptance - You would think that being an atheist vegan would be a requirement at the top of my list, but it's not. It would be great, but as long as they were accepting that I am an atheist and that I am vegan it is okay. I don't want to change anyone and I don't want anyone to change me. I want some one to accept me as I am.
I know this list maybe a bit unrealistic. At this point I figure I should aim high as I have nothing to lose. Right?
I have been married twice now and am pretty certain at this point that I don't want to go down that path again. I have had three children two of which will be moving on to college and having a life of their own before I know it. So, I'm not looking to start a family and raise kids and build a home with anyone. I have that. I think I'm at a stage in my life where I'm being a bit more selfish. I want to date maybe even have a relationship with someone so that I can have fun and enjoy someone else's company. I'm not looking to have someone move in with me or support me.
With all of these thoughts swirling in my head I have made a list of qualities that I'm looking for in a person to date or have a relationship. This list is in no particular order, just how I thought up these items.
Intelligence - I know that this sounds like a given, but I find I can become quite inpatient with people that can not grasp complex ideas.
Ambition - I have met some very intelligent individuals that have no ambition. Sure they can make more money or get that job, but for some reason they choose to complain about it rather than take action and change their situation.
Kindness - General kindness to other is a must have. Not only do I need kindness, but someone who can show my children kindness. By this I do not mean I'm looking for a daddy, but really someone that can be genuinely kind.
Humor - I want someone who can make me giggle and be silly with me. Life is too short to always be serious. Need to have fun.
Passion - If you are interested in me tell me. Let me know it. Hate to play guessing games. Now this is completely different than smothering with affection and stalking. Once thing is for sure, I need my own space.
Conversation - Love to meet someone that could talk about Nuclear medicine, Yo gabba gabba or nothing at all. Just being able to hold a conversation about whatever is going on is a good thing.
Responsibility - Again this seems pretty obvious but it amazes me how many people do not seem to take responsibility for themselves and their own actions. You're a grown up right? Well act like it.
Emotional strength and maturity - Yes my life is complicated. I know that and I doubt that will ever change. Need someone that can deal with that. Life is not always rainbows and unicorns. Life can get ugly and messy at times. If that is too much to handle then, they are not the one for me.
Financial Stability - Like I said I'm not looking to play house and have someone support me, I can stand on my two feet. I expect the same of who ever I'm with.
Shameless flirting - Okay, so I will acknowledge that I'm a huge shameless flirt. But it truly is just that. If I'm committed, I'm committed. So if I'm flirting it is just that and nothing more. Takes a big man to be able to deal with that.
Acceptance - You would think that being an atheist vegan would be a requirement at the top of my list, but it's not. It would be great, but as long as they were accepting that I am an atheist and that I am vegan it is okay. I don't want to change anyone and I don't want anyone to change me. I want some one to accept me as I am.
I know this list maybe a bit unrealistic. At this point I figure I should aim high as I have nothing to lose. Right?
Friday, April 16, 2010
I'm just a bit nutty
Ever feel like life is spiraling out of control? Usually life's stresses are easy to deal with when they come at you on a one on one basis. For what ever reason my life has gone into a tail spin lately. I'm dealing with getting divorced and my 14 year old who is bipolar going through some really rough times. Oh and did mention that work is crazy due to a merger and layoffs.
If I seem a bit off from my usual self, you're right I am!
-- Post From My iPhone
If I seem a bit off from my usual self, you're right I am!
-- Post From My iPhone
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Super Easy & Yummy Vegan Brownies
I have had this recipe for over five years now, can't recall where I found it as I only have a handwritten copy. This is too yummy not to share, Especially since it is soooo easy to make and so yummy.
2 Cups Flour
2 Cups Sugar
1 Cup Water
1 Cup Oil
3/4 Cup unsweetened Cocoa powder
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt
1 tsp vanilla
1.Preheat oven to 350 degree F
2. In large bowl combine all ingredients and mix until well blended
3. oil pan and coat with cocoa powder
4. Pour mix into 9 x 13 inch baking pan ( I use glass)
5. Bake for 25-30 minutes
2 Cups Flour
2 Cups Sugar
1 Cup Water
1 Cup Oil
3/4 Cup unsweetened Cocoa powder
1 tsp baking powder
1 tsp salt
1 tsp vanilla
1.Preheat oven to 350 degree F
2. In large bowl combine all ingredients and mix until well blended
3. oil pan and coat with cocoa powder
4. Pour mix into 9 x 13 inch baking pan ( I use glass)
5. Bake for 25-30 minutes
Monday, February 22, 2010
Vegans only?
Recently there has been some buzz about vegans only dating other vegans, versus dating omnivores. This was a pretty funny topic, until it became apparent that some within the vegan community take this quite seriously. Thought being that to truly be a vegan you must only date other vegans.
What is the reality of only dating other vegans? With vegans accounting for only one percent of the general population it is not highly likely. Most people cannot explain what causes or does not cause an attraction between two people. Common shared interests are often a factor, but then again opposites often do attract as well. The choice to be a vegan is very personal. You cannot force this life style choice upon anyone. Often what has seemed to have happened over an extended period of time is that the vegan partner will slowly convert the omnivore over to their way of thinking. Most long-term vegans have become accustom to the idea of explaining the benefits of living a vegan life style. The benefits vegans create by not exploiting animals. How veganism improves the environment and the individual health benefits.
Ultimately dietary choices of who you date are not as important as helping others understand the importance of the vegan lifestyle. If the relationship is with the right partner they will respect and seek to understand what it means to be vegan. This is not to say that a either will be converting one from being an omnivore to a vegan, or a vegan to an omnivore lifestyle as relationships are not about changing one another but growing together.
What is the reality of only dating other vegans? With vegans accounting for only one percent of the general population it is not highly likely. Most people cannot explain what causes or does not cause an attraction between two people. Common shared interests are often a factor, but then again opposites often do attract as well. The choice to be a vegan is very personal. You cannot force this life style choice upon anyone. Often what has seemed to have happened over an extended period of time is that the vegan partner will slowly convert the omnivore over to their way of thinking. Most long-term vegans have become accustom to the idea of explaining the benefits of living a vegan life style. The benefits vegans create by not exploiting animals. How veganism improves the environment and the individual health benefits.
Ultimately dietary choices of who you date are not as important as helping others understand the importance of the vegan lifestyle. If the relationship is with the right partner they will respect and seek to understand what it means to be vegan. This is not to say that a either will be converting one from being an omnivore to a vegan, or a vegan to an omnivore lifestyle as relationships are not about changing one another but growing together.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Every good thing
I drive by several churches on my way to work. One in particular posts a new phrase every few days. Yesterday I noticed a new phrase up "Every good thing you have ever enjoyed is made possible by god".
Well I had to laugh thinking about this. Thinking about the things I have in my life that I enjoy and am grateful for have nothing to do with an imaginary being. I feel truly sorry for the delusional sheeple that buy into this and then hand over their hard earned money to continually perpetuate this lie.
Things I'm grateful for are my kids. My kids were created as a biological process of me having sexual intercourse with my husband. No intervention of god there. I'm grateful for the nice home that my husband and I have been able to provide for our kids. That is a result of us both having good jobs and working hard. No imaginary being there. Having a good job is a result of me spending years earning my degree. Again, no intervention there. I could go on and on but I won't.
Overall the point being that every good thing I enjoy in life I can attribute to something that I have done, worked for or someone in my life has been able to provide. There is no divine intervention. The poor and uneducated are continually being lead to believe otherwise. Poor, poor sheeple.
Well I had to laugh thinking about this. Thinking about the things I have in my life that I enjoy and am grateful for have nothing to do with an imaginary being. I feel truly sorry for the delusional sheeple that buy into this and then hand over their hard earned money to continually perpetuate this lie.
Things I'm grateful for are my kids. My kids were created as a biological process of me having sexual intercourse with my husband. No intervention of god there. I'm grateful for the nice home that my husband and I have been able to provide for our kids. That is a result of us both having good jobs and working hard. No imaginary being there. Having a good job is a result of me spending years earning my degree. Again, no intervention there. I could go on and on but I won't.
Overall the point being that every good thing I enjoy in life I can attribute to something that I have done, worked for or someone in my life has been able to provide. There is no divine intervention. The poor and uneducated are continually being lead to believe otherwise. Poor, poor sheeple.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Surprise, Surprise
As of this month I have now been Vegan for four years. In looking back at the decision to make this change in my life I can say that I'm truly happy that I did. It really has had a positive impact in my life and overall health. Which has me now wondering why are so many reluctant or still strongly tied to the consumption of flesh.
I have been thinking about this a bit recently, especially noticing the amount of recalls that have been posted by the FDA & USDA sites. For the most part these go unnoticed by the mainstream consumer until there is a massive recall that makes the local news.
Food for thought, our health is largely impacted by what is put into our bodies. FDA closely regulates prescription medications, OTC products & cosmetics. The Red Cross has established requirements for who can and can not donate blood. Some of the requirements are as follows:
- Can not be pregnant
- Had a tattoo within the last 12 months
- Needle stick within the last 12 months
- Epilepsy seizures
- Visited an area with Malaria
- History of Hepatitis
- Having been in jail in the past 12 months
- Having syphilis or gonorrhea
- Have any risk factors for HIV
From that standpoint we watch what goes into our bodies. We would not find it acceptable to have blood transfusions or organ donations made if we thought that the original host was diseased. These types of incidents are rare and and few in far between for most in a given lifetime. Yet food that is consumed on a daily basis is given much less attention. Which I would think should be quite the opposite.
In contrast the USDA set regulation and policies of how meat must be inspected in order to suitable for consumption is much more lax than blood donation requirements. Current requirements state that animals must be disease free otherwise there is special handling requirements for dealing with the diseases animal. Keep in mind that does not mean that the animal will not be able to enter the food supply. As far as I can find cattle are only tested for the following:
- BSE - Bovine Spongiform Encephalopathy or Mad Cow Disease
- Bovine Tuberculosis
Beyond this the cattle do have to appear to in general good health. Yet, most cattle herds are infected with viral Leukemia and Johne's Disease and not tested for this and is not used as a requirement to determine suitability for food supply. Viral Leukemia appears in most bovine fluids such as milk that are consumed by the general population, and this is not eliminated by the pasteurization process. The rate of leukemia has increased 37% in the US since the 1960's. As for the Johne's disease it is the main suspected culprit of causing Chrone's disease and IBD in humans.
Is it a surprise that the general population is in such poor health? Is it surprising that the masses are looking for a national health care solution? I don't think so, yet very few take the time to educate themselves on how to improve health through diet and embracing a vegan lifestyle. This I do find very surprising.
I have been thinking about this a bit recently, especially noticing the amount of recalls that have been posted by the FDA & USDA sites. For the most part these go unnoticed by the mainstream consumer until there is a massive recall that makes the local news.
Food for thought, our health is largely impacted by what is put into our bodies. FDA closely regulates prescription medications, OTC products & cosmetics. The Red Cross has established requirements for who can and can not donate blood. Some of the requirements are as follows:
- Can not be pregnant
- Had a tattoo within the last 12 months
- Needle stick within the last 12 months
- Epilepsy seizures
- Visited an area with Malaria
- History of Hepatitis
- Having been in jail in the past 12 months
- Having syphilis or gonorrhea
- Have any risk factors for HIV
From that standpoint we watch what goes into our bodies. We would not find it acceptable to have blood transfusions or organ donations made if we thought that the original host was diseased. These types of incidents are rare and and few in far between for most in a given lifetime. Yet food that is consumed on a daily basis is given much less attention. Which I would think should be quite the opposite.
In contrast the USDA set regulation and policies of how meat must be inspected in order to suitable for consumption is much more lax than blood donation requirements. Current requirements state that animals must be disease free otherwise there is special handling requirements for dealing with the diseases animal. Keep in mind that does not mean that the animal will not be able to enter the food supply. As far as I can find cattle are only tested for the following:
- BSE - Bovine Spongiform Encephalopathy or Mad Cow Disease
- Bovine Tuberculosis
Beyond this the cattle do have to appear to in general good health. Yet, most cattle herds are infected with viral Leukemia and Johne's Disease and not tested for this and is not used as a requirement to determine suitability for food supply. Viral Leukemia appears in most bovine fluids such as milk that are consumed by the general population, and this is not eliminated by the pasteurization process. The rate of leukemia has increased 37% in the US since the 1960's. As for the Johne's disease it is the main suspected culprit of causing Chrone's disease and IBD in humans.
Is it a surprise that the general population is in such poor health? Is it surprising that the masses are looking for a national health care solution? I don't think so, yet very few take the time to educate themselves on how to improve health through diet and embracing a vegan lifestyle. This I do find very surprising.
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